More than 1.5 years gone without a single entry to this
blog of mine. What is my thought on this? I must say, it’s a mixed bag of
feelings, torn between guilt and a sense of entitlement. Entitlement to feel that it
is ok not to take action sometimes. Well, it’s certainly not a good habit of
mine, yet, it’s a coping mechanism for me I suppose, to make sense of how much
is actually going on in one’s life today at this day and age. Social medias,
the constant bombardment of breaking news, 24-hour news feeds, never-ending
Internet marketing emails… life can be exhausting! The mind is not resting
properly, the body is not functioning optimally.
Hence it’s that how we should feel? I began to question the
effects on the social “advancement” of our humankind.
Being me, I always let the issues that I learn and
experience to affect me in one way or another. I begin to think of how I have
progressed and I could not help but to break it down to my career, my wine
journey, my love life, my family life and all this in no particular order. They
all define me in one way or another. I can’t help but to be reflective when it comes this time of the year.
My wine journey so far has been a really kind one. I have
had a plenty few of memorable bottles and flavours that I had savoured that
open up a whole new experience. Chateau Simone and a bottle of Fronton. The
scent of foxiness, the signature scent of Négrette, will forever ingrained in
my memory. I must give thanks to the person who brought these bottles and
shared them with me. Also, with two wine certifications, I can now add two sets of
abbreviation after my name. And I vow to live up to that. I also discovered that the effect of
alcohol and fatigue is a deadly combination to one's health and one must always be
mindful not to combine both. Drink
only when your body says I’m ready, not when I’m tired.
My career has also been a kind one for me. I am still enjoying
the lifestyle perks of my job yet I begin to search for an answer to cope with
fatigue. I supposed no one is
exempted from the wrath of aging and it is just a part of growing up and
growing old. But the question remains in our popular culture on how to reverse
aging, or to slow it down. My take on this is, keeping one fit physically and
mentally and it’s always easier verbally than through action. Nonetheless, I must
keep myself occupied in some ways or another by doing some sport. I think I
should rekindle with badminton, which I grew up with. In my line of work, I have had some unfortunate
incidents as well. I had one that affected me quite a bit. However, I have learnt to
let go and it left me with a sweet note, a reminder to enjoy my life to the fullest, every
moment, every heartbeat. I am just a mere mortal and there is so much that I
can control, life and death is definitely not one of them.
I always ask myself, if I die today, will I die happy? My answer
is always a yes. My soulmate, my
life partner, my best friend, my hubby has the greatest part to play on this. His
reassurance is always the comfort to my soul and his love, my reason to live on.
I have plenty to write about us, but there’s something in me that I felt, that it
only belongs to us and not to be shared to the public. And I regard this as our
very own sacred Steph & Dan. Something that is only felt and shared with
your closest. I hope you have the chance to experience that in your own way.
I am also glad that I am always yearning to be with family
members. And that includes friends who are family we have chosen for ourselves.
I always thought that I can be an independent person, a loner but yet, I am most
joyful when I am with the company of them. I guess, I am growing up and growing
old.
I have still a long list of to-dos and must-reads and
must-sees.. I am eager but in a more controlled manner, taking one thing at a
time and breaking down stuffs into manageable pieces. Life is sometimes a mystery
and most of the time, very real. We are what we feel and we are how we live our
life.
Cheers to a brilliant 2015!
